Forgotten

I'm kinda pissed off, and sad at the same time. Is that possible? Well, if it wasn't before, it is now.

My friend, Kat*, moved away to New York last January, and for the most part we've stayed in touch up until her birthday in September. At her birthday party, she was really different. Refer to this post.

Did I mention that I was brutally miserable? Well, I was. I felt horribly left out, considering that she had brought along another friend of hers from Ohio, Mandy*. They had obviously stayed in touch more often then we had, because they clicked like they had never been seperated. But, when we visited the amusement park that we visited, and when we were leaving, I saw them texting back and forth between each other, and I saw the word "Erin" in one of the texts.

And that hurt worse then a punch in the stomach.

Because I knew they were trash talking me.

So I texted my best friend Jacie and told her about it, and she was a great deal of comfort. From there on, I was miserable and just wanted to go home. And when I finally did, I didn't even spend too much time saying goodbye to Kat, because I just wanted out.

In November, over Thanksgiving break, Kat texted me "hey! we should get together! i'm not busy on friday, want to hang out?"

So I texted her back "sure!"
So on Friday, I texted her again "hey, are we hanging out today?"
She replied "oh sorry, i already made plans."
I wish I could have slapped her through the phone, because I was pissed from that point on.

And last Thursday, she chatted me on Facebook. "hey! i am coming home this weekend, do you want to hang out?"
"sure."

And her most recent status was "went to the ____ ____ with my cousin!"
And since the place in the blanks is in our area, I commented.
"wait, you're in town? can we hang out?"
She replied a few minutes ago with a bunch of comments and inside jokes from her and her cousin, and also a teeny message enclosed in one of the many comments.
"and erin, sorry, but we leave tomorrow at four. but definetely next time!"

I had had enough. My eyes filled with tears, and my heart filled with anger and hatred for Kat. I slammed my laptop shut and kicked over my swivel chair. I opened my laptop and logged back on to Facebook, removed her as my friend, and blocked her. I wanted absolutely nothing to do with her.

It's people like Kat who really tick me off. She claims us to be "so close that we are like sisters!" but yet she never "can" hang out. Are we so close that we are like sisters that you throw me to the wayside everytime you come home to Ohio? Yeah, of course we are, Kat.

There are times when I thank my lucky stars that Kat is away and gone, and this is certainly one of those times. It's like, "Hello, I still exist? You may not remember, but we're friends, and friends don't forget other friends when they come home from New York to Ohio?"

So thus, ends my rant.

~E~

*Names of people have been changed to protect their identities